im a FAILURE!!!

if he only wants to be with me through good, than i think im not the one who he needs,, i feel that i cant give him happiness,, what's the used of me if he only wants to be with me to share the happiness,, if i cant be there for him when he had a problem, than i think myself a failure,, he aint want to include me in his sadness,, what am i to him?? dont he thinks that i want to be with him when he is in pain?? 


if i cant heal his pain,than im a failure,, if i cant deal with his sadness, than im a looser,, if i cant be with him when he is in suffer,than im a useless,, it showed me that my luv is nothing for him,,


i wonder what's the use of me being beside him when i cant feel the pain that he feels,,will i be able to be his future wife when he had his pain n he aint wanna share with me??does he think that i cant handle his problem and feel the suffer?? or he just did this because he aint wanna trouble my head with his prob?? he needs time, but what am i to him?? am i just his gf who only wants him through his HAPPINESS?? 


HAPPINESS means even he is in pain n i can give him my luv to cure his heart it's also called happiness,,happiess that i achieve,,my SATISFACTION that im there for him,,


all i want is for him to include me n his life,,I WANT TO BE PART OF HIS SUFFER,,
i want to be his happiness,his pain,his sadness,his suffer,i want to be all of it,,does he know that i luv him through good and bad??


to him: DO MAKE ME FEEL THAT IM PART OF UR CHAPTER,PART OF UR STEPS,PART OF UR SADNESS,PART OF UR HAPPINESS,,its all that i need,,


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